I am not exactly the "happiest" person around.
04/24/2011
PTaking pictures of myself at WCTV when I should be editing footage.
Uhhhh. So where do I even start? First of all, I would just like to tell everyone that I have been in quite the "funk" as of lately. Why? I cannot really pinpoint anything specific. Honestly, I think it is many things. I believe some of it has to do with the dreaded illness senioritis.
So much is on my mind. Unfortunately, I think I am starting to hit the "burn out" point with school. The past couple of years have been incredibly fast paced. Don't get me wrong -- that's great and all -- but I really do not feel like I have taken enough time for myself. It is really starting to get to me. That mixed with everything else in my life has me feeling incredibly overwhelmed. I promised myself last semester that I would take this semester easy (yeah, that was a lie). I am constantly rushing to get things done, working on the weekends, trying to make time for my friends, etc. Of course, I am aware this is all my fault haha. I have a tendency to spread myself too thin. Finally, I have decided to take it easy next semester (for real this time).
Late night talks about life at Steak 'n Shake.
It all started when I went to Jerome Mahaffey's office (my advisor & Professor of Communication Studies) to discuss my Communications degree. The night before, I had been up looking at my class grid to see where I am at in terms of graduation. I was really taken back when my grid was full -- I literally had no where else to put any classes. I thought to myself, "No, this cannot be right. I still have more Comm classes to take." Reality hit me the next day when I was sitting in his office and he told me I was finished. Honestly, it took about five minutes for it to soak in. I'm finished with my Communications degree? What the ... No way! Then the "oh crap" emotions sunk in and I started to freak out. I will be completely upfront and vulnerable here: I started tearing up when I walked out of Tom Raper Hall. There were so many things running through my head: I have worked so hard, I looked forward to the classes, I cannot believe it is over, I am going to be thrown into the real world soon, I have made so many close friends at IU East etc etc. It really hit me that all good things must come to an end. I have one more year at IU East (I'm finishing my Psychology degree as well) and then I am out of here. It is hard for me to grasp the idea that I will be making yet another transition. It leaves me with a feeling that is indescribable. It leaves me speechless.
Cleaning the Boys and Girls Club.
Unfortunately, I cannot move on without making this post a little more depressing. On April 15th I lost my friend Lindsey Ramsey to a car accident. That will be the second friend I have lost in less than two years. She was an incredible person who always had a smile on her face. When I think about growing up, she was always in the picture. I used to carpool with her every day in high school. Luckily, I was able to catch up with her a few weeks prior to her death. Sadly, when I said "goodbye" I did not know it my last. It really makes me choke up. She was so young. Working at a grocery store sucks too -- I have to scan the newspapers and they have a picture of her car accident on the front cover. I cannot even stand to look at it. She will be missed dearly. If there is one thing to take from this situation, it is to always appreciate those close to you and realize that any day could be your last. I really try my hardest to not say goodbye to someone on bad terms -- just in case I never see them again.
Moving on, my most recent activity was IU Cares. For this event, students who work with the Indiana University Alumni Association get together and do some sort of service to better the community. This year, we were supposed to paint over the graffiti in Richmond, Indiana. However, because Mother Nature is a jerk and all she wants to do is rain on us, we had to come up with an alternative. Instead, we helped the children clean their facility for the Boys and Girls Club. Sounds fun, right? Yes. In fact, after we were done, we played dodgeball (they kicked our butts). It really was worth it. :) The Boys and Girls Club even has ambassadors (kids who give tours etc) just like IU East. :)
The whole gang for IU Cares.
I am ready for this semester to be over. I need to take a huge breath. I will be in a wedding a few days after school ends. After that, I will be headed to Siesta Key, Florida for a week of fun. I am staying in a condo with my bestie, Jade Guthrie. I plan on doing absolutely nothing for the whole trip -- we may go deep sea fishing but that is about it. I cannot wait to sit in the cool sand and stare at the ocean for endless hours a day. After we return, we will be leaving for southern Tennessee a few days later for Bonnaroo. I swear, every time Lil Wayne comes on the radio, I am reminded that I will be seeing him in concert in little over a month. I cannot wait! Thennnnn, the weekend after I return, I will be headed to Bloomington, Indiana as your student representative for the IU Alumni Association Executive Council. This summer is going to start off with quite a bang -- but it will be fun.
Another great summer ahead.
Lastly, I would like to address Backwoods 'Lympics. My apologies go out to those who were super excited for the event -- trust me, I understand because I was too. I had to pull the event for several reasons. My main reasons were the weather (as you can see it looks like poopy outside), and attendance was a tad sketchy. You must understand the event was funded by Student Government Association. It would be incredibly irresponsible of Students Today Alumni Tomorrow to spend that sort of money not knowing the turnout. The good news is that it is only postponed -- we will be back. :) The alternative should be much better. I think everyone is stressing with the end of the semester approaching. Trust me, I understand. I just want you all to know there is no conspiracy behind the cancellation of the event. It was purely my decision (a hard one at that) but it had to be done.
Finish the next couple of weeks strong! We are almost done. Until next time...
